this entry is LONG-WINDED AND UNNECESSARY
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Hi :D Umm yea i thought to myself, explaining that why must i have 1 public blog, 3 test blogs, and 7private blogs. Hahaha then i decided that i should write it down here! In case i have forgotten why and start questioning myself again :S Anyway, hmm i have got 11 blogs in total. The one you reading now is the only non-private blog. It has minimal privacy and this is the space for me to somehow indirectly pass hidden messages to people around me. However, the other 10 blogs are created for some special reasons!
ok..
1.)Randomness-workbook = public.
I've got another 3 tests blogs. Hmm, test blogs? Test blogs are for me to try out the new blogskin i wanted to use for my public blog. Perhaps that is also a space for me to create my personal blogskins or edit blogskins that i wanted to use for my public blog! It is also used to save html codes which i might need it in the future. And i often use these test blogs to test fonts that i would like to use for the next blogskins/layout. That's why i call it a test blog.
Ok then.. about private blogs...
Usually, i won't private my private-blogs and each blog that i created it is for a particular someone. Hmmm, like example if i feel something for this person, i will create a blog to write stuff about him. Just for that particular person :S I also write blogs about my family and friends, hence 7private blogs. Sometimes i would post about 2-3 person in a blog.
I wrote sensitive stuff in my blogs, however i will not purposely hide my blogs away from others. One way or another, people around me are able to find their way into my private space. So I stopped blogging there and move to another blog. I know i won't be able to blog like the past after i know that they found my private-blog, so in order to be true to myself I created another space to write down my feelings and thoughts again. Every time i shifted my blog the level of privacy also increases. I am really uncomfortable with people reading my feelings/thoughts so freely, i feel so naked without being able to disguise myself.
sometimes i find that it's ok for people to read about those sensitive chunk of words i posted. maybe i need them to make a change about the uncomfortable situation they had created for me.
Yea talking about followers, Twitter and tumblr. I keep getting followers, the more i get the more i am unable to tweet/write stuff i feel like writing. I feel that they followed me because they have found meaningful sentences on my profile/space or they found themselves similar to me or as simple as they know me and they just want to keep in touch through social webs, but dang!
I can't come out with these inspiration sentences or whatever-u-call-that-similar-situation-thingy-feeling-in-words all the time! I only write them when i feel damn argh! You get it? -.- those followed me for inspiration sake will unfollow me naturally. Thanks, that's very "supportive" of you.
I know i had bothered many people who followed me on twitter. I am being damn emotional, because I AM REALLY HAVING NEGATIVE THOUGHTS?! What do you want me to do? It was meant to be there for me to spout whatever shit i want to say.
Also, weird. I don't know why i feel disappointed when my followers dropped from 114 to 108 :/ LOL it was a huge difference! Sometimes i really wanted to questiong those followers :"why the hell you followed and unfollow me? Please explain? z."
I stop spamming my twitter with negativity already alright! UGH. How could i not want more followers? It's so competitive on twitter, everyone is like comparing the number of followers. DAMN STRESS KNOW. (i know every one is comparing secretly, don't have to lie. Even to yourself while reading this! It's ok, i totally understand how you feel *nod nod*)
Though i would still like to whine on my twitter :( i control myself not to, just because people who followed me, especially my friends, don't like to see emo shiats on their updates >.> OK LOR. So i stop flooding them with all the typo errors and emotional stuff.
HENCE LED TO PRIVATE BLOG AGAIN AND PRIVATE TWITTER AND PRIVATE TUMBLR. Zag............................
Something that was meant to private became known, causing me to create another private space to keep my privacy :/
I swear if people don't judge, if they don't gossip, don't feel a thing about what i post i will not private them. LOL, impossible.
ok kthxbye.
